Ugh this sounds like school all over again. [ Caroline groans.
Except really, she's just trying to cope. One second she was home, about to go spend time with her friends. A boy asked her if she knew how to find Mystic Grill. She said yes. And the next second she's an employee of a company that destroys planets for a living. Planets with life on them.
They just kill people. And she's a part of it now.
She's doing her best to try to get through this, and maybe some day she'll be Elena-level okay. Not that she imagines Elena to be happy with any of this, but she seems adjusted. Maybe one day Caroline will be too, just like she adjusted to being a vampire she'll adjust to this. She just needs time. Time and processing. And to get through either she has to try to act as normally as she can manage, connect to her old life any way she can.
Elena here helps with that. Elena is a huge help. She's not sure she could do it without her. She takes Elena's hand and smiles, though her smile doesn't quit reach her eyes.
Then Elena is smiling more and trying to shake it off and Caroline is taking a deep breath, shaking her shoulders out, and moving on with her. ]
Or bootcamp. Fun. [ She rolls her eyes. ] I'm not climbing through mud in the rain with those spiky wires over me like they do on TV, though.
Otherwise, I'll totally learn the gun. If I'm going to have one, I might as well know how to use it.
It's not nearly so bad as school. Or, I guess it is, just... in different ways?
[ because it's hard to deny that destroying planets is a bad thing. and there's that whole thing where they're going to have to kill possibly-sentient creatures in order to do their jobs. and... okay it's worse than school. by a pretty large margin. still, there's no point in dwelling when there's nothing they can do about it. they might as well just take things one step at a time and try to find the good in things where they can. it's not as though they don't have experience with that kind of thing.
it's not that elena is okay with all this, exactly -- it's still killing innocent animals, even if they're not sentient, and she has no idea what the cdc's criteria are for destroying a planet -- but she's accepted that this is her job now, and she won't put everyone back home in danger by refusing to do it. nor will she put everyone here in danger -- it's nearly as important to her that the recruits are kept safe as it is that her earth and mystic falls are too.
elena doesn't let go of caroline's hand, holding it tightly in her own as she laughs. she hadn't realized having someone from home who could properly empathize with her would be such a help, but... well, after trying to navigate the minefield that is ripper stefan, caroline is a breath of fresh air. ]
You know, bootcamp might actually be good for you. I had my training with Ric, and I've had some good teachers since I've been here, too, but you rely too much on your strength and speed in a fight. [ which elena can say from distressing experience, but she's not going to think about that. ] You could use some instruction in how to throw a punch, and stuff.
I can help with the gun thing, but I might get you in touch with Steve Rogers, see if he'd be willing to help you like he's helped me.
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Except really, she's just trying to cope. One second she was home, about to go spend time with her friends. A boy asked her if she knew how to find Mystic Grill. She said yes. And the next second she's an employee of a company that destroys planets for a living. Planets with life on them.
They just kill people. And she's a part of it now.
She's doing her best to try to get through this, and maybe some day she'll be Elena-level okay. Not that she imagines Elena to be happy with any of this, but she seems adjusted. Maybe one day Caroline will be too, just like she adjusted to being a vampire she'll adjust to this. She just needs time. Time and processing. And to get through either she has to try to act as normally as she can manage, connect to her old life any way she can.
Elena here helps with that. Elena is a huge help. She's not sure she could do it without her. She takes Elena's hand and smiles, though her smile doesn't quit reach her eyes.
Then Elena is smiling more and trying to shake it off and Caroline is taking a deep breath, shaking her shoulders out, and moving on with her. ]
Or bootcamp. Fun. [ She rolls her eyes. ] I'm not climbing through mud in the rain with those spiky wires over me like they do on TV, though.
Otherwise, I'll totally learn the gun. If I'm going to have one, I might as well know how to use it.
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[ because it's hard to deny that destroying planets is a bad thing. and there's that whole thing where they're going to have to kill possibly-sentient creatures in order to do their jobs. and... okay it's worse than school. by a pretty large margin. still, there's no point in dwelling when there's nothing they can do about it. they might as well just take things one step at a time and try to find the good in things where they can. it's not as though they don't have experience with that kind of thing.
it's not that elena is okay with all this, exactly -- it's still killing innocent animals, even if they're not sentient, and she has no idea what the cdc's criteria are for destroying a planet -- but she's accepted that this is her job now, and she won't put everyone back home in danger by refusing to do it. nor will she put everyone here in danger -- it's nearly as important to her that the recruits are kept safe as it is that her earth and mystic falls are too.
elena doesn't let go of caroline's hand, holding it tightly in her own as she laughs. she hadn't realized having someone from home who could properly empathize with her would be such a help, but... well, after trying to navigate the minefield that is ripper stefan, caroline is a breath of fresh air. ]
You know, bootcamp might actually be good for you. I had my training with Ric, and I've had some good teachers since I've been here, too, but you rely too much on your strength and speed in a fight. [ which elena can say from distressing experience, but she's not going to think about that. ] You could use some instruction in how to throw a punch, and stuff.
I can help with the gun thing, but I might get you in touch with Steve Rogers, see if he'd be willing to help you like he's helped me.