If you would consider my hair having the worst few days it has ever had in the history of my being alive constitutes as doing terribly, then I'm doing really badly.
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
I'm okay, though. It was what it was. We survived and I guess that's all I can really ask for?
Your poor hair. You had to deal with the fire arrows, right? Did one catch your hair, or something?
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
Yeah, alive is good. But you're like... psychologically alright? I wasn't expecting we'd get a class A planet so soon, and I know you haven't had as much time to come to terms with things as me.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
Granted I'm still not the biggest fan of our job, but I'm more okay than I was when I started. How are you doing with it all?
Only singed the ends. It could have been worse, but you would have heard me screaming if that had happened. It's more the humidity and lack of showering. That did not help anything at all.
[ Her next answer takes some time. ]
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
I don't think I'll ever be okay with this. I don't think anything can make me be okay. Being a vampire I could do. I could do the whole don't actually eat humans thing. I mean that in a 'it was possible' way.
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
I can't do the the whole don't actually kill people and destroy their homes thing here. There's no CDC-lite.
Ah. Yeah, that would do it. I've been trying not to pay attention to how gross I feel, honestly. Aren't showers great?
[ well, she's better than d'artagnan. there's that, at least. ]
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
I know. It sucks, even more than it did on Ajna. I wish you weren't pulled into this, Caroline, but... You were, so we have to figure out a way to make this bearable for you.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
What helped me was thinking about how the rest of the crew depends on Green team. We're the protectors, here, we're the ones who keep everyone safe. I can just about stomach what we do if I tell myself
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
that I'm doing it to protect everyone else. It doesn't help with the last parts, but... it helps when we're being attacked.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
I also trust Armada. He wants to keep the crew safe, and I think he wouldn't give us orders that didn't contribute to that goal.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
Try to find something like that. Something that helps you sleep at night.
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If you would consider my hair having the worst few days it has ever had in the history of my being alive constitutes as doing terribly, then I'm doing really badly.
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
I'm okay, though. It was what it was. We survived and I guess that's all I can really ask for?
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Your poor hair. You had to deal with the fire arrows, right? Did one catch your hair, or something?
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
Yeah, alive is good. But you're like... psychologically alright? I wasn't expecting we'd get a class A planet so soon, and I know you haven't had as much time to come to terms with things as me.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
Granted I'm still not the biggest fan of our job, but I'm more okay than I was when I started. How are you doing with it all?
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Only singed the ends. It could have been worse, but you would have heard me screaming if that had happened. It's more the humidity and lack of showering. That did not help anything at all.
[ Her next answer takes some time. ]
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
I don't think I'll ever be okay with this. I don't think anything can make me be okay. Being a vampire I could do. I could do the whole don't actually eat humans thing. I mean that in a 'it was possible' way.
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
I can't do the the whole don't actually kill people and destroy their homes thing here. There's no CDC-lite.
FROM: forbes.caroline@cdc.org
But what else can I do?
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Ah. Yeah, that would do it. I've been trying not to pay attention to how gross I feel, honestly. Aren't showers great?
[ well, she's better than d'artagnan. there's that, at least. ]
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
I know. It sucks, even more than it did on Ajna. I wish you weren't pulled into this, Caroline, but... You were, so we have to figure out a way to make this bearable for you.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
What helped me was thinking about how the rest of the crew depends on Green team. We're the protectors, here, we're the ones who keep everyone safe. I can just about stomach what we do if I tell myself
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
that I'm doing it to protect everyone else. It doesn't help with the last parts, but... it helps when we're being attacked.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
I also trust Armada. He wants to keep the crew safe, and I think he wouldn't give us orders that didn't contribute to that goal.
FROM: gilbert.elena@cdc.org
Try to find something like that. Something that helps you sleep at night.